Last year, my holiday vacation was the most disappointing Christmas I could remember. 2013 was a very hard year for me, so I just wanted to come home, relax and be with my family. However, I didn't think I had any expectations, but I quickly found out that I did have some. 2013 was a very hard year, no just for me (JV left me, that opened the emotional floodgates about what I did to CM and how I had not dealt with it because I was distracted. Then, 6 months later, I was officially diagnosed. It was tough at first, but then I got tired of crying by myself, so I decided to start getting out and meeting people.
However, it's now 2014 and I've had a year and a half to accept what I did to CM, and my diagnosis. I have learned a lot about myself and MS the last year a half. This year, I hope to meet up with my friends and just leave all expectations at home, for real this time.
I've been home for over a week now, and so far, I've had a great visit. I've had some amazing conversations with both friends and family, and I've got many more lined up.