Last Week / by Neil Blake

Last week was quite a challenge on an emotional level, but it turned out okay. At the beginning of the week, I really felt as though I was relapsing, to the point where I had to leave work early. I decided to get back on the green juice and vitamin train and I did.  By the end of the week, I started to feel better.

I'm not sure that it was purely the supplements or the green juice, as I may have just been me ability to control my thoughts. The depression that I felt coming on may have had to do with JH and I just returning to "friends", which totally sucks, but, I need to learn not to judge my life based on 1 relationship that didn't work out. 

I'm now left with an interesting dilemma; to wait, or start looking again. Waiting just seems too passive, and if I learned anything last year, it was that I am responsible for my happiness. At same time, I also feel like waiting a little bit to see what happens, a very low risk that is totally worth the reward.