Pain Day by Neil Blake

Yesterday was a day full of pain, which was so intense at times that I was having a hard time talking. You could hear it in my voice, see it o my face. It was bad. 

I have a feeling today is going to be another day similar to yesterday in the pain department at least. 

Epstein-Barr <-> MS by Neil Blake

I use Flipboard to read the news these days, as google reader doesn’t exist anymore. Today I found an article that I was surprised to finally see published that talks about a recent study which has linked the EB virus to 7 other diseases, including MS. 

I got MONO when I was in OAC (grade 13, uni prep in Ontario, where I grew up) and after i was diagnosed with MS in 2013, I kind of got the idea that the EB virus and MS were somehow linked.  

Now, they are talking about how the Epstein-Barr virus is linked to 7 chronic illnesses including MS. 

Half Way by Neil Blake

Today is Aril 15th, which means that tomorrow I will be 2 months away from turning the mythical halfway point of my life. It's interesting as I sit here thinking about my life . 

When I do think about what I had and what I have today, I have a major problem finding anything to be happy about. I Mean, don't get me wrong, I know that I had successfully achieved all of the goals I had set myself when I was younger. 

And so when things started going bad in my marriage, instead of trying to fix things with the most beautiful women I've ever met, I decided to throw it all away. 

I will forever hate myself for that.

Exorbitant by Neil Blake

I was outside walking to the grocery store yesterday when I saw a "FOR RENT" sign on it with a new sign to indicate that there was a 2 bedroom unit available. I pulled my phone out and gave the manager a call to see how much rent was. That's when he told me that the two bedroom apartment in the 3 story blue building across the street without a view or anything, was going to be $2400/month!

Now, to put this all into perspective, I can you an excellent example. Almost 5 years exactly, I was living in a sub-penthouse 2 bedroom apartment in Coal Harbour for an extra $250/month more! 

Happy Birthday Phoenix! by Neil Blake

Last night I was at home watching TV and chatting with family, wishing them a happy Easter, when I noticed that my aunt had slipped in that my very pregnant sister's water broke.  Instantly there was a huge smile on my face from ear to ear. 

I really can't wait to meet this little guy!

Busy! by Neil Blake

I just noticed that it’s been a week since my last post, so I just thought I'd post a quick update.

A few days ago I went to Locarno Beach to hang with a friend of mine who is also in a situation where he is also not working at the moment, which is nice for me, as it give me someone to hang around with and talk to during the day. You see, I've known for a long time that I was an extrovert, even if I didn't understand the reason why I was. 

 

Bitcoin by Neil Blake

So with all of the buzz about Bitcoin in the news, and just about everywhere, I wanted to know more. That's when I learned about mining and how to go about it. That's also when I found VoskCoin, on youtube

I got totally inspired and bought all the parts I was going to need but didn't have yet. I got the parts and started hooking some of it all up, and that's whey I learned that building a a machine to do mining with, although it sounds very easy, let me assure you, it it no. 

Even though I have a degree in computer science, it gets complicated! especially to someone with MS who can't really concentrate, or really has a hard time processing information in ways that make sense. 

After having spent a couple of solid days at  trying to follow Mr. Vosk's videos, I gave up and just returned everything to amazon. 

Good Day by Neil Blake

Yesterday was one of the best days fI've had in a long time. A friend was in town for her dog who was getting operated on at that night. Because he had just been operated on, he was going to have to stay the night at the vet's.

Ricarda and I now had the night from taking care of the dog, so we went out. We were dancing on the steets, running into people, just putting smiiles on everyone's faces.

I just wish that every night could be a night like that night. 

Clean by Neil Blake

I've been trying to save money lately which means I've been staying home a  lot more than I was. I've known something about myself for a long time which hit me quite hard yesterday. I found myself alone all day for the first time in a long time. So there I was just sitting  in the living room watching daytime TV.  It didn't take very long before I got really bored so ended up cleaning the house up a little bit. My bedroom is still a mess, but at least most of the clothes are clean now too. 

Actually, now that I think about it, I need to run a few errands before I can continue cleaning as iI need soap and cleaners.

Midnight Sun by Neil Blake

I saw a preview of this movie the other day, and was just so hooked, it’s crazy!  

Now, I’ll totally be the first to admit that it isn’t very hard at all to make me cry these days, but the other day I was watching TV and then the above trailer for Midnight Sun started to play. Ever since I made the greatest mistake I have ever made in my entire life, I have really been into hearing about amazing love stories and the people in them.  

Midnight Sun is about a girl with a rare illness where she is sensitive  to the sun, and so has to stay inside when the sun is out. When she very rarely does go outside, she keeps running into a boy who plays guitar.out on the street. It just looks like an amazing tear jerker of a film. I can’t wait to see it!!

Another thing that I really want to see is how she lives and deals with some of the problems that come along with being so sick at such a young age with a rare disease that aots of people don't really understand, like me and my MS.

I'll post a short review of it here first.

Co-Dependancy by Neil Blake

I recently realized something that I really wish I'd realized about myself a long time ago. Although it took a divorce and a bunch of other stuff for me to see just how co-dependant I really am. CM and I used to be, and it tends to happen to me again and again. I also think I know why. 

As the oldest in my family, I always had someone around me that I needed to watch or take care of, but now, I read need to start focusing on me.  

Fifty Shades Freed by Neil Blake

A friend of mine took me out to see a movie recently, which I hadn't done in a long time, as I really have a hard time staying awake long enough to watch an entire movie these days, especially at night. We went to go see Fifty Shades Freed, and since it had been a while since it had been released and it was the last show of the day on a weekday, the theatre was fairly empty, and now that i've seen it, I can totally understand why. It's just terrible movie, unless you're really into some fairly good sex scenes of course. I did read the first book and saw the movie in the series called 50 Shades of Grey, but definitely lost interest and started watching the movies and stopped reading the books. After having seen the latest movie, all I have left to say it "Wow! Ami ever glad I didn't waste more times with the series!

Hillcrest Pool by Neil Blake

A couple of weeks ago, I bought a 30 day pass called the OneCard for $30 at Hillcrest Community Centre. The pass is good for any recreational facility in the city for 30 days, so it was a great deal. 

For example, yesterday I took a friend to HIllcrest as she had never been there before to show her the facility and my favourite part, the lazy River. 

We got there at about noon and started with a tour of the lazy River before heading in the steam room and hot tub. We laughed all day as we were just having so much fun. 

One of the pools has a 1m, 3m and 5m diving boards. I jumped off the 1 and 3 a couple of times, but wasn't going to do the 5, especially because even off the 3, I couldn't see where the water started, so it looked like I was jumping onto a floor wayyyyy down there. SCARY!

Then, I was watching my friend jump off the 5, and while there ended up talking to a little kid about jumping off the 3 and suddenly found my self  all full of courage. I decided to just walk up to the top of the 5m and jump offf! 

unfortunately, I totally did a face flop, because wow, did that ever hurt!

Even though I can still feel it today, especially when I brush my teeth, I'm heading out to swim again right now.