Halfway There by Neil Blake


When I was younger, I didn’t really think about what it would be and feel like to turn 40 years old. I mean, it’s not like I wasn’t planning for it because I was, but not in a lot of ways and areas I should have. 

I say “should have”  because even though my life changed drastically after I was diagnosed with MS, I do need to remember to appreciate what I do have. If this trip has shown me anything, it is that I have an amazing family and am friends with a group of truly amazing people who love me. It was all that expression of love that had me so emotional yesterday. Being back home for such a milestone has been extremely difficult because of all of the old thoughts that keep getting stirred up. 

At the end of the day however, it was a day I don’t ever want to forget and it reminded me of how important being in the moment really is.

Really? by Neil Blake

I've always taken public transit to and from work, especially once I realized how much less stress, expense, and in Vancouver at least, traffic I would have to deal with. Taking transit has always meant there was a lot ore walking in my life. When I was working as a software developer, I'd be sitting at a desk all day which meant that I wasn't getting a lot of exercise. 

Now that I am a lot more conscious of my health and my body, I set myself a daily step count of at least 13500 steps a day. I use my Apple Watch Activity App and Carrot Rewards app (if you want to earn more reqards, please use my user code "neilb6398") to keep track of all my step numbers everyday. 

Once I saw that I could earn Airmiles and Aeroplan miles just by walking, I'd joke I was going to walk to Hawaii! The only problem is I doin't think my shoes are going to make it. If i haven't somehow punctured a whole through the upper of the shoe like I did with my last brand new pair of Adidas shoes. Hopefully the shoe repair guys can fix them up real nice!  

I Think I've Got it! by Neil Blake

After a full 10 years of dealing with sooo much in my life, including the major distraction of being diagnosed with a chronic illness (MS), I think I have finally figured out how to finally let go of one of the best things to ever have happened to me. 

I have been seriously struggling for 10 years trying to figure out how to let go of my ex-wife. FINALLY! 

MS Walk Final Numbers by Neil Blake

Here's an update on the final total amount my team “The Young Persons Père Support Group”  managed to raise. We did it!!! Having raised over $14,000, we managed to be the team that managed to raise the most in the Fraser Valley! What an amazing achievement everyone!

I just want to end by saying a huge thank you to everyone who donated! 



MS WALK by Neil Blake

The MS Walk was yesterda and it was a great success. I personally raised over $800, and my team got to just under $14,000! 

Thank you to all those who contributed !

No Family Doctor by Neil Blake

Just before I got sick in 2012, things were just starting to get weird. I was still playing hockey at the time and had broken my hand one day by losing my temper and punching the glass. Because of the combination of weirdness starting and my broken hand that I would need a daily doctor. That's when I found Dr. Raymond McConville

Unfortunately, it's not 2012 anymore and after many years of amazing help and service, he is now retiring. 

I was telling a friend about this and that was when she put everything into perspective for me about my time in Vancouver and how lohg I've been here. The entering thing about that was that thinking about how long I've been here and what I have been seriously contemplating moving back east... and then I remember my medical records.

That's when the back that I would be leaving Vancouver, the home of the UBC MS Clinic.


Ahhhh!!!!! by Neil Blake

The last few days have been soooo good, I'm almost scared to talk about it! AS mentioned a few weeks ago when I met her,  Amanda and I have managed to figure out that we can very easily help each other out in ways that people without the same illness just can't understand.

Another reason that I've been away lately is Matt, Amanda's friend from way back. The first time we met we got along so good, we made plans to go out, just the two of us, the Boys!

We started off at mine with a few Raspberry beers, some dabs for me and amazing conversation until the beer ran out. That was the first perfectly timed event of the evening. After our last sips of beer, we headed out toward the Alibi Room in Gastown. Matt had told me about a girl and her friend that he wanted meet up with. 

As we were walking to the Alibi Room, Matt received the message he's been waiting for, and then BOOM! There she was just crossing the street right in front of us. That's when I met Pricilla, Matt's friend and then her friend, Cat.

Anyways, we ended up having a great night while having a blast with two very beautiful women we'd just met. 

Pattern by Neil Blake

So I’ve recently noticed something about myself,  well, more like realized, about how I seem to always end friendships with women. I should also probably describe the type of friendships I tend to form with women. 

I often have a hard time deciding whom to spend my time with and how to spend it. So, if someone who makes all that really easy for me to figure out, I just end up spending way too much time together which inevitably leads to us fighting and “breaking up”. 

Great Mother's Day by Neil Blake

Yesterday was such a great day. I went to my friend Amanda's for a barbecue, which she had just bought used. Once we got it all cleaned up and got it looked up to the propane tank, we tried to get it to light and burn, but it just wouldn't go. That's when Mike, Amanda's mom's friend came down to help. He eventually got it lit after doing a bit more maintenance and getting a propane tank with some fuel in it.   

Once lit, I took over and put the patties on and grilled them up, while Matt cooked bacon and prepared and ;mazing Caesar salad. 

My favourite part about yesterday as the conversations that we had and not once did anyone start shouting at anyone else in the room. It was great!

The Brain by Neil Blake

I found a very interesting article about the human brain this morning.  I just love articles like this one that are so informative and well written. 

As someone with MS, my body at times attacks the myelin sheath of my brain and nervous cells very aggressively. In my first MRI back in 2012, there were already 20-30 lesions. So when I read about some of the new information we are discovering becauseof newly published research results. 

Beard Be Gone by Neil Blake

I always wanted to try to grow some facial hair when I was younger, so a while back I did. It was getting long enough that it was also approaching “terminal itch state”, you know, that state where it’s so bad, it just has to come off! For me, that was yesterday. I did manage to take a couple of pics though.



Repeat! by Neil Blake

Something important has really been bugging me for quite some time now. I just keep cycling over the same things in my head again and again without ever getting to a place of acceptance. 

Although, that being said, I did have a really good thought to help get me a lot closer the other night. It had to do with a hypothetical situation where I would be wanting to try to get something back, but the simple act of doing so would be directly against what I am all about today... not interupting something already in progress.

Hmm, finally! by Neil Blake

I was watching Love and Hip Hop Atlanta yesterday and I finally had the moment I’d been waiting for, the moment where I totally mourned the loss of my chance of a child with one of the most beautiful human beings I’ve ever met. 

When i was married, children were a big part of the discussion. I just wasn’t ready for kids back then. Now is entirely different because of the MS and that’s what I realized last night. 

Pain Day by Neil Blake

Yesterday was a day full of pain, which was so intense at times that I was having a hard time talking. You could hear it in my voice, see it o my face. It was bad. 

I have a feeling today is going to be another day similar to yesterday in the pain department at least.