Clean by Neil Blake

I've been trying to save money lately which means I've been staying home a  lot more than I was. I've known something about myself for a long time which hit me quite hard yesterday. I found myself alone all day for the first time in a long time. So there I was just sitting  in the living room watching daytime TV.  It didn't take very long before I got really bored so ended up cleaning the house up a little bit. My bedroom is still a mess, but at least most of the clothes are clean now too. 

Actually, now that I think about it, I need to run a few errands before I can continue cleaning as iI need soap and cleaners.

Midnight Sun by Neil Blake

I saw a preview of this movie the other day, and was just so hooked, it’s crazy!  

Now, I’ll totally be the first to admit that it isn’t very hard at all to make me cry these days, but the other day I was watching TV and then the above trailer for Midnight Sun started to play. Ever since I made the greatest mistake I have ever made in my entire life, I have really been into hearing about amazing love stories and the people in them.  

Midnight Sun is about a girl with a rare illness where she is sensitive  to the sun, and so has to stay inside when the sun is out. When she very rarely does go outside, she keeps running into a boy who plays guitar.out on the street. It just looks like an amazing tear jerker of a film. I can’t wait to see it!!

Another thing that I really want to see is how she lives and deals with some of the problems that come along with being so sick at such a young age with a rare disease that aots of people don't really understand, like me and my MS.

I'll post a short review of it here first.

Co-Dependancy by Neil Blake

I recently realized something that I really wish I'd realized about myself a long time ago. Although it took a divorce and a bunch of other stuff for me to see just how co-dependant I really am. CM and I used to be, and it tends to happen to me again and again. I also think I know why. 

As the oldest in my family, I always had someone around me that I needed to watch or take care of, but now, I read need to start focusing on me.  

Fifty Shades Freed by Neil Blake

A friend of mine took me out to see a movie recently, which I hadn't done in a long time, as I really have a hard time staying awake long enough to watch an entire movie these days, especially at night. We went to go see Fifty Shades Freed, and since it had been a while since it had been released and it was the last show of the day on a weekday, the theatre was fairly empty, and now that i've seen it, I can totally understand why. It's just terrible movie, unless you're really into some fairly good sex scenes of course. I did read the first book and saw the movie in the series called 50 Shades of Grey, but definitely lost interest and started watching the movies and stopped reading the books. After having seen the latest movie, all I have left to say it "Wow! Ami ever glad I didn't waste more times with the series!

Hillcrest Pool by Neil Blake

A couple of weeks ago, I bought a 30 day pass called the OneCard for $30 at Hillcrest Community Centre. The pass is good for any recreational facility in the city for 30 days, so it was a great deal. 

For example, yesterday I took a friend to HIllcrest as she had never been there before to show her the facility and my favourite part, the lazy River. 

We got there at about noon and started with a tour of the lazy River before heading in the steam room and hot tub. We laughed all day as we were just having so much fun. 

One of the pools has a 1m, 3m and 5m diving boards. I jumped off the 1 and 3 a couple of times, but wasn't going to do the 5, especially because even off the 3, I couldn't see where the water started, so it looked like I was jumping onto a floor wayyyyy down there. SCARY!

Then, I was watching my friend jump off the 5, and while there ended up talking to a little kid about jumping off the 3 and suddenly found my self  all full of courage. I decided to just walk up to the top of the 5m and jump offf! 

unfortunately, I totally did a face flop, because wow, did that ever hurt!

Even though I can still feel it today, especially when I brush my teeth, I'm heading out to swim again right now. 

Compass Card by Neil Blake

I take transit to get around Vancouver, and here we have an HDID card called the Compass card for our transit passes. They have a similar tap on/tap out system in Brisbane and Auckland, except the only place you need to tap out of here is the SkyTrain. 

Anyway, in the past week I have lost my loaded compass card twice! Thankfully my card was registered so I just needed to get a new card and have the balance transferred to it. Easy!!!

Best Move by Neil Blake

Yesterday was a very important to me kind of day. Yesterday, 5 years ago was the anniversary of one of the best decisions i've ever made. It was the day I decided to quite smoking, and unlike the 5 or so previous times i have tried to quit, I actually did. I still remember smoking that last cigarette and how happy I was to finally have finally reached that point.

Moving Time? by Neil Blake

I've been living in my current apartment in the west end of Vancouver for about 3 years now. I can't even remember the last time I lived somewhere for so long, and now my nomad instincts seem to keep trying to get me to look into moving again. 

After my parents got divorced and my mom moved my sister and I back to Sudbury. At first we lived with my grandparents, but once my mom was able to find herself a job and a little bit of stability, it was time to get an apartment on her own. Back then, we would move almost once a year and it was just tiring. We would change neighbourhoods, friends, schools and more. I just couldn't understand my mom'e need to continuously move. 

I've just had to deal with so much change in the past couple of years. Now that I have finally reached a fairly stable state in my health, the feeling to move again is definitely starting to spark up. It would be fun to move again, but at the same time, I love the west end, my building, Greenhorn is across the street, really, everything about where I live right now is awesome. 

Now that I am thinking about it, the only reason I would consider moving today was if I could save a shit-ton of money to pay off some debt and get into better shape financially. In the end however, I know that moving would just stress me out, and I'm not ready to deal with any move stress, and so since I'm the one in control of my life, I am not going to stress myself out when I don't have to. 

Hillcrest Community Centre by Neil Blake

A friend of mine, JC, bought me out to the Hillcrest Community Centre to check out the lazy river they have there, along with a sauna, stream room, hot tub and pool in the aquatic enter. I like the fact that even though there is a mix of warm water activities, the pool with diving boards and cool water is also right there in case I need to shock my system cold to regulate my body temperature. Now that I think about it though, going from hot tub hot to pool cold would probably be too much of a shock! 

I've been to the facility twice so far, and last time I was, I bought myself a 30 day pass for $30, but unfortunately have yet to use it, so I'll end this post here and get myself to the pool. 

Missed Opportunity by Neil Blake

I realized once I got home from the Pancakes and Booze Art show that I had completely forgotten to make and bring a small sign talking about sponsoring me for the MS Walk

coming up on May 27th, 2018. This year my goal is to raise $1000, so if you can spare anything at all to sponsor me, it would be GREATLY appreciated. It would be amazing!

FUCK You MS by Neil Blake

So, it's a Monday at 2:24 in the afternoon, and here I am sitting at Tim Hortons just down the street from my place here in the West End of Vancouver, by myself. Again. I mean it's not like I don't have the time. That's all I have. 

I need to stop lying to myself about my situation and figure things out. Living on a disability income in an expensive city like Vancouver is not easy, but not impossible. 

I wish I could compare getting sick with something like MS to losing a job, but it's so much more complicated than losing a job. You see, not only did I lose my job, in essence, I lost my ability to work. 

I just find myself in a less than ideal financial position which will take a long time to rectify.  I wish I could afford to travel! That would definitely help the time pass. Or, someone to spend it with would also be nice. 

Pancakes and Booze Art Show by Neil Blake

I haven't been blogging as mush as I've wanted to lately because I was busy getting ready for the Pancakes and Booze Art Show at Fortune Sound Club which was last night. Unfortunately I did not end up sell any pieces, but I did end up making some new followers on instagram, and even in the end it ended up costing me money instead of being able to sell some pieces and make a bit of money. My product manager job was totally stolen from me by my MS, and even though I was able to finally find something that allows me to get away, meet new people to have conversations about thing that I have come to love, instead of sitting in front of the TV, by myself. 

The Build Has Begun by Neil Blake

I finally received them motherboard i'd been waiting for to start putting all of the pieces of my mining rig together and start mining!. Did manage to get a little bit of it done this morning before I ended up somewhere with a little more space that would also allow me to watch videos in a more comfortable environment. 

Another reason that I left was, while I think I will still be able to make process without help from someone in person, this morning definitely inspired me to head to Meetup to see if I could find a group that would could help.